Necklace

Today I am really missing my boyfriend. I know it is sort of a dumb thing to blog about, and I am sure I sound like some eighth grader pining over the "love of their life" but alas, I am still typing. While this transition is finally getting to be a little easier, the one hard part is being so far away from Brett. It has always been hard dating someone who is younger than me, and I have heard enough times that we won't stay together, but so far so good so why give up just because I moved? When Brett came to visit the other weekend he brought me a necklace, a late gift for our sixth month anniversary. I keep watching it dangle around my neck and although I love wearing it, and what it symbolizes, is it wrong of me to think that sometimes I don't want to carry it? (Looking back on into The Things They Carried...) It is alot harder than I thought to be with someone who is at such a different stage in life. In two weeks, Brett will have homecoming and he is insisting, since I will be home that weekend, that he is not going. I have of course told him otherwise; why would I want to be the reason he misses out on things? I am not sure how I can get him to see my point of view, though I suppose I shouldn't complain seeing how good of a boyfriend he is; by far better than any I have ever had. I suppose I will just have to wait and see what the outcome is. I don't feel like I want to break up with him, I just feel bad that he is willing to miss out on things when in reality, I don't think I am.