Care Packages

This week I have felt so blessed with gifts, particularly care packages. A teacher from my high school went up to my mom and told her that she had sent me a package. So I went to check and see if the package was there, and when I received the package I realized that it was in fact from my aunt and uncle. They packed up a box of food, candy, coffee, etc. for me to have over finals week. I thought that it was so sweet that they would think of me enough to send me an entire box of food. I am now also looking forward to the package my high school teacher as sending me. I also appreciated the food and survival bags professors were giving out in class. I have truly felt blessed in receiving this many packages. People on my floor have been jealous of me lately, that I have gotten so many while they haven't. It makes me thankful that God has blessed me with so many awesome friends and family in my life, and it makes me realize that I have so much to be thankful for in this Christmas season. Now I just can't wait for break!

Poems

Doing my credo made me realize how much I do enjoy writing poems. When I was younger, I always disliked them, but the older I get, the more meaning I am able to draw out of them. I think that writing poems are fun because while they involve some deep thought, they also involve simpler things, such as rhyming (which has always been a favorite of mine). It is funny to think that sometimes I will look for a certain song lyrics, or quote, or poem to use as a facebook status, etc. when in reality I could just make up my own saying. Sometimes, I don't think that people give themselves enough credit. Quotes, while they are always good to reinforce points, are really just words said by someone else. I think I am going to start making up my own quotes and/or poems as a way of expression. Sometimes, when I am writing, I wonder why I ever wanted to do biology in the first place. Art and writing sometimes come much easier, but then again I love biology and science just as much. I wish that I could write my own poem on what I am supposed to do with my life.

Birthdays

This weekend has surprisingly been really fun. At first I was rather disappointed that Brett thought it would be better if I didn't come home, because he had wrestling and thought that he would be busy most of the time, therefore it wouldn't be beneficial for me to come home. However, I am now seeing that I was supposed to stay here for a reason. One, I am extremely glad that I didn't leave because of all this bad weather we have gotten today! I was so surprised to wake up and see all the snow had melted to water, however, things changed quickly enough as everything started to freeze back up into ice and the blizzard was on it's way. Second, I am glad I stayed because my floor (well, most of my floor) went out for two of my friends, Alea and Jordan's, birthdays. While we were going to go to Cedar Falls to Buffalo Wild Wings, we ended up just going to Joe's for wings. I didn't think they were that great, but it was nice to be with my friends and meet some new people. And third, I am glad I stayed because tonight I ended up hanging out with some girls down the hall, and while I may regret my decision tomorrow when I have so much studying to do, it was a super fun night and I feel like I have made some new friends. I think that I was supposed to stay here to realize that I should be having a good time and meeting people in college, and that going home so often may not always be the best decision for me.

Distracted

I am behind on my blogging lately, and I have to say that I blame Brett. Since we have been kind of rocky lately, I have been putting so much time into thinking about him that it seems everything else is getting placed on the back burner. I know that it should be the other way around, but sometimes it is hard not to get caught up in relationship drama. I wish that we were still fine, but I think that he is starting to see this may be harder than he expected it to. While I understand his wishes, it is still hard to think that I may have to let go of what we have. Obviously I know that God has a better plan for me, even if it doesn't involve Brett like I may wish. I wish that sometimes my "path" in life was easier to see. Lately I feel like nothing that I thought was certain is. I feel like I am confused with Brett, my future career, and even if I want to stay at Wartburg next year. While I really love the school, I am starting to wonder that maybe even with my scholarships this school is just going to cost my family to much financially. It is hard to say what is right at this point, but I hope that God will make my path clearer to me as time goes on.

Crunch Time

These three remaining weeks are starting to get very hectic. I am not looking forward to all the studying I know is coming. It is hard, I feel, to prepare for some many things at one time. I AM excited, however, for winter break. Three weeks off is exactly what I need! There are many projects, and assignments I need to do, but lately it is hard to figure out what to do first. My planner has become exceptionally useful this week, and I have note cards everywhere as reminders of the projects I need to finish. Though I feel stressed now, I know that it will only get worse, but I suppose I will make it through if I just keep imagining the time at home. I love Christmas, it is my favorite time of year. (Clique, but true) I decorated my whole house when I went home because I was so excited, and didn't want to miss out on any decorating. I am excited for cookies, and old Christmas movies, etc. I am also looking forward to the new classes that will come after break. Though I am excited to rid of math, I will miss IS. Next semester I will still have biology and chemistry, and will then pick up Spanish and composition. I am a little worried that next semester will be more stressful, but I am hoping that the skills I learned this semester will have prepared me for the next.

Timeline

For my final project, I have been reading the book Timeline. I am more than 3/4 of the way done with it, and I am thoroughly pleased that I picked this novel. Upon first starting it, I wasn't sure if I had made the right choice, but it seems that I can't put the book down. I was very surprised that the idea expressed, quantum mechanics/chemistry, is a topic that Dr. Drolet just talked about in my Chemistry 113 classroom. He himself even mentioned the idea of traveling. I think that novel in that it doesn't feel like a science book, as even Jurassic Park did. I think that there is a lot more history, and a plot, that makes the novel an easier read. I am excited to see what happens, though slightly disappointed a review I read before reading the actual novel gave away a major point of the plot. I am still excited to see the results for myself though. I think that the paper will be easier to write than I thought, and if not, I have already asked Dr. Drolet for help if I get in a bind (which I'm crossing my fingers I won't). I am anxious for the project as well. I felt a little bad that I didn't ask Sarah to work with me, but it seemed as though she wanted to work alone (then again, I never did ask...) BUT I am really excited to do the project with Kevin and Derek, after Kevin asked me to be with them. I get a kick out of the two of them, and I think that it will be fun to do a project together. I think that we are going to possibly do a movie, though I'm not entirely sure. I hope that it is more fun than stressful and turns out good!

Weather

So I am sitting in my room waiting for my last two classes and I am PRAYING that the weather holds off. I WILL be going home no matter what, hah! My friend Tricia sent me a text saying to be careful though, that she was going home from Des Moines and had seen 20+ cars in the ditch. I am hoping that my driving will be alright, and I will make it home safely! There is only one road in particular that I am worried about and I am thinking that I may try to avoid it. Hopefully, though, my next blog will be from the comfort of my home! I am not nearly as upset still, which is awesome! I think it's all this holiday festivity. I was slightly shocked that my professor, the one I have been having problems with, is still not letting up on people. She sent out at email to our class last week saying that if one more person asked to take the quiz at a different time she wouldn't let anyone, including the person with the plane ticket and the one with the parent in the hospital. Now she goes so far to send us an email saying that there is no bad weather for Waverly, and that only the people going north should be concerned, stating that if we are going south our only concern should be getting our belongings to D lot. I thought this was a little far to say, especially when I know that I at least HATE driving in bad weather, seeing as I haven't done it that often. I found it more appalling when one of my friends told me that she posted both these email responses on facebook INCLUDING two students emails to her today saying that they won't be there due to weather related reasons. I think that it is SUPER unprofessional and I know that if my email would have been up there I would have complained. I heard (though I am not into rumors) that she actually did get in trouble for the 2 posts of students emails, though I am not sure. I am just glad my situation is resolved, and I am on good terms with her now (even if that is selfish to say). My group asked her for some help on a project, and seeing as she loves to "help" we are back in her "good graces." I suppose I am not any better for blogging about her, but at least I am not posting it on facebook! I am just so happy to get this math test over with and start heading toward Grinnell! Woohoo!