Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Rage
I am now beyond the point of acceptance. I was fine all of today until math class, when after class I heard two other students discussing with her about taking the test on Monday- the day I wanted to - and she told them to talk to her and, basically, that it was probably ok. I have no idea what the heck I did that was so wrong? Apparently, everyone elses' situation must be a lot worse than mine? Good grief... I hate drama, and I feel like this is ridiculous that my, 40 something year old math teacher is causing it for me. I feel like, for a college I am spending all my money on, it is completely unprofessional to have professors treat students with the disrespect I feel I have been given. However, I don't want to go asking my professor if I can now take the test Monday too because I am not going to put up with another response from her. I plan on making it through the rest of the semester, and then I am going to be sure I NEVER have another class with her. I am usually a pretty forgiving and accepting person, at least I try to be, but I feel like in this situation I have been pushed to the limit. I feel bad putting so much emotion into this situation, and anger towards my professor, seeing as this was probably just a breaking point for everything that has been going on and she just happened to be the one to push me over the edge. I hope that I will be able to look past this event in the near future, and pass this class so that I will never have to feel like this again. Who knew break could bring so many ill feelings? I am most upset that I am not even as excited for break anymore. I will just be glad to be home, and hopefully I will be able to give thanks for the things that actually have been going right lately. This is my last blog on this topic, but I had to let off steam. It seems that I have found a new outlet, in blogging, to help control my emotions. Therefore, props to IS :)
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Sounds like you are having a rough time! :( I hope things start to turn around. I know how much you want to go home and be able to spend time with your dad, even though things aren't the greatest with him so I can completely empathize with you on this situation. Of course, I know the back story so I get why you are wanting to be gone for Wednesday's classes.
ReplyDeleteOf course, I am also a professor so I can see the other side as well. ;) (but I also know you don't want to hear that side right now so I'll wait awhile and just offer my empathy at this point)
I had an issue with a prof in grad school one summer. The summer classes had traditionally been 2 hours a day for 4 days for 4 weeks. I had been planning on that and was planning on a vacation to the mountains of Idaho after the class was over. Then she decided to change the schema and had us meet 2 hours a day for 2 days a week for 8 weeks, effectively knocking out the chance to go to Idaho. I wrote her (being a student who was even in labor in one of my grad classes!!!!) and asked if she was lenient on attendance policy. She jumped down my throat and wrote me the nastiest email. She even griped about me to my advisor. And of course I didn't go on vacation. Still she had never had me and didn't know this about me and missing class is a big deal and it was an interactive class so to miss one week meant to effectively miss 2 weeks of class so I can kind of see her point but I was still upset.
I'll pray for you as I know you are really going through it right now! BTW - now that I'm married I have to alternate Christmases and Thanksgiving with our two sides of our family and even at 40 I'm still a little bitter and more than a little sad about not being with my family during the holidays. :(