Imperfection

I am finally feeling like I am getting myself a little caught up today, though I'm sure the feeling won't last. I am so ready for fall break that I can't focus on anything lately it seems; my imperfection for the week. I think that I am homesick, slightly, but I seemed to have blocked all feelings for the sake of sparing my emotions. When I was younger, I was extremely good at this. Looking back, I always wonder how I didn't explode. It seems the older I get the less and less patient, and more emotional, I become in certain situations. I think that I am also a little down because my best friend, Tricia, can no longer come up for homecoming this weekend because she too is getting behind in some classes. I am not mad at her, just sad I will virtually be spending homecoming with no one I really want to. I did make some new girl friends this week, which is positive, but all I really feel like doing is being at home with my family and Brett. If I just keep my mind set on break, however, I know the week will go by faster. I don't know how people survive college sometimes. I always thought it would be hard, but not this hard. In my opinion people shouldn't go to college until they are thirty, hah. But in all honesty, who decided that an eighteen year old was ready for this kind of stress? I don't know how much I enjoy growing up anymore. Why is it kids never realize they had it good until they are grown up? At least I know I didn't. Perhaps it is a maturity thing (look at me, implying that I'm mature, hah!). But I better quit blogging and go to work, another "adult activity" I wish I didn't have to engage in. Until next time...